This feedback was sent in by someone who undertook Wounds to Scars Healing Program
You have helped me tremendously, you have challenged my thinking and taught me how to connect my brokenness to the powerful word of God.
She continued with this very powerful reflection of her journey to date.
I have struggled more often than not to connect who my Heavenly Father says I am against who society, i.e., ‘family, friends, church, strangers, work’ says I am. In retrospect, I wondered whether there should be any comparison? I have concluded that reasonable comparison brings about change.
In this instance, it’s a change of thinking only God can orchestrate; from beginning to end.
Many a time people viewed me based on how I’ve presented. Truthfully sometimes I show a somewhat average or mediocre representation of what my Heavenly Father has called me to be.
Now, I view myself on occasions as a derelict building ‘under construction’. Hidden inside me are the most incredible virtues and furnishings that God has individually placed for me to flourish. God has put these attributes internally for diverse reasons. I am beginning to accept my ‘hidden peculiar qualities.’
She continued by describing her process of healing as a building under construction.
There are days where I am so weak, on these days I questioned God’s presence and asked ‘God are you still there? Why am I under construction?’ Sometimes I shy away from exposure fearing the reactions of people when they see my ‘deconstructed building.’ Some days the hammering and drilling hurt and I slip back into allowing my environment to define as they judge me based on the cracks, mouldy places and unpolished bricks. Many turn away from the pile of cement which to me provides evidence of the work you are doing to put me back together again. Father, because of you, I am beginning to accept the possibilities in rubble. God, I am getting to the place where I no longer wonder whether people see the bigger divine construction. Help me not to wonder if they see my unique journey, after all; they are not my creator.
As I journey on my Heavenly Father tells me of the stupendously wholesome woman inside that is screaming to come out’. He invites me into His presence where He reveals to me the mysteries of life’. Sometimes He even sends angels in human form to hold my hand, so I will not lose my footing, my God is the great I Am!
God says to me, through all the internally awesome things I’ve given you a glimpse of what is yet to be fully developed and realised. I placed them there not for you to release but for me to take the time to refine then give you the green light to release them. All I ask you to do is to remain faithful to the light you have now, remain loyal to the baby steps you are making. I may even choose to place your strength, your passion, your loving nature, your resilience, your patience, your gracious nature under the firing furnace of trial. The tests are not meant to harm you. ‘I have great plans to prosper you,’ my intention is to reveal to you in greater magnitude the kind of woman you truly are, My child you do not need the approval of the people around you.
Will you trust me sufficiently to help you to connect my plan for you and where you are right now? Through this journey, I have been challenged to disconnect every unhealthy relationship and plug only into God’s power. He has remained my only ultimate source of strength.